Even the best fall down sometimes

As I stare out the window,
I was embraced by your cold shadow.
I shivered; reminisced about your warm caress
Only to wake up from this sweet stress.

Thirty years from now will you still think of me?
Of how we used to walk through the streets..
Of how our hands stumble upon each other
And find our eyes locked to forever.

Maybe this is not our time, nor yet the time
Maybe the ocean will soon dry
Maybe the birds will soon walk
Maybe the magic has lost it's spark
Maybe the ghost has come alive
Maybe our love was meant to stay in the past.

Midnight Talk: May

Personally meeting up with guys I've known virtually is one thing. I never really saw myself venturing into this world. Not that I'm into the hook-up scene--no, it's not that. Exploring this kind of dating scheme is quite new to me. Actually, the concept of dating itself is new for me. After all the long-term relationships I've had in the past, I never thought I could be classified as not just single, but dating.

For my previous relationships, there were always the courting stage. The traditional Filipino style of dating but with a twist. Instead of singing outside my house accompanied by a guitar, there were YouTube links of romantic songs for me. Instead of chopping woods to be used in the fireplace, there was the taga-buhat ng everything--bag, shopping spree, grocery, food, etc.

But this era, you can actually date someone you've just virtually met. With the likes of WeChat, Tinder, Skout, Grindr--online dating applications--one can easily browse for potential partner. With a few click, you can start a conversation online. After a few lines, you decide to meet up. You either eat, drink, watch a movie, stroll--just about anything. Then you make out.

You see each other for quite some time--3 weeks, 1 month, 2 months--eventually one of you will shy away. Probably one of you met someone more exciting to be with, more fun to talk to, etc. When one starts to shy away, there are a lot of potential reasons why.

I got bored.

This is going nowhere.

Walang sparks.

Feeling ko may iba syang kinikita.

Busy.

And many more.

This habit is now developing into a new culture by the Filipinos. 

Alone but not lonely

First time ko manood sa sinehan nang mag-isa. Nasa bucketlist ko siya nitong mga nakaraang linggo pero ngayon lang ako nagkaroon ng pagkakataon para gawin ito.

Dati, iniisip ko mukha siguro akong tanga kung manonood ako mag-isa. Wala akong mabubulungan ng komento ko; wala akong mahahampas o makukurot pag nakakagulat o nakakakilig yung eksena. Parang ang lungkot. Baka isipin ng ibang tao ay loner o kaya  ay wala syang ka-date. Alam niyo naman ang mga tao, echosero't echosera.

Pero nagawa ko.

At okay naman.

Normal naman. Ayos nga e. 

Nung umpisa, medyo nag-alangan pa ako kung tama ba yung desisyon ko kasi horror movie pa yung pinili ko. Talaga nga naman. Naghahanap yata talaga ako ng problema. Haha!

Pero.... okay naman. Pag nakakagulat yung eksena, kahit wala akong mahahampas o kurot, magugulat akong parang normal na tao. Pag kadiri yung eksena, imbis na yumakap ako sa katabi at magtago, pwede naman ako pumikit o takpan ko ng sarili kong kamay yung mata ko. 

Hindi ko kailangan umasa sa ibang tao kung kaya ko naman pala. #Hugoat

Pero, sabi nga ng title ko, Alone but not lonely--oo mag-isa ako pero hindi ko naramdaman na nag-iisa ako. 

Masaya. Masarap sa pakiramdam na kahit papaano, na-i-spoil ko ang sarili ko. 

Ngunit hindi sa lahat ng oras ay masaya mag-isa. Syempre, darating yung panahon na kailangan may kasama ka. Hindi lahat ng bagay masaya gawin nang mag-isa. Yung iba kasi mas masaya pag may kasama. 

Labor Weekend 2015

While most people are in Boracay for LaBoracay.... we were, again, in Quezon for Labor weekend. hehehe di ako makaisip ng magandang Labor- name. :( 

Last year this time, we were in Mar Del Sol resort sa Sariaya, Quezon also. But this time we tried Paraiso Beach Resort. It's more developed, more mainstream, hence more people!! Kaimbyerna pero keri!! May bonggang pool--one olympic size for adults and one kiddie pool. Pero sobrang init ng adult pool parang sauna kakaloka!!

Sarap ng dagat talaga forever!!

 thank you panorama :))

photobombing my brother's moment HAHAHA

hindi ko alam bakit wala ako dito.... :( 

not much picture but I had a really good time!!! :)

nognog po ako.

how was your labor weekend? :)

XO